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Tuesday, October 19, 2010
shouldn't be posting this, so much to read. but i love this book, and just wanted to write this somewhere where i'd be able to find it later: "I am not sad, he would repeat to himself over and over, I am not sad. As if he might one day convince himself. Or fool himself. Or convince others--the only thing worse than being sad is for others to know that you are sad." |
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Tuesday, October 12, 2010
it makes me happy, but it made me sad. hearing all the talks that felt like they were specifically written for me, to give me renewed hope in humanity, to realize that there is a God who does love us, that was beautiful. until i later read about president packer's talk that touched on homosexual feelings. i am not gay, but that doesn't mean i don't know and love gay people. there was a time in my life when i considered it unnatural, mostly because of my parents' opinions, but as i've grown up and formed my own opinions, i've realized that they have no choice, and it's simply the way they are; they can't change it. so many of my sister's friends from BYU are gay, and she would talk about how they struggled so much with their feelings because they were part of a religion that portrays same-sex desires as being unnatural, and acting on said desires as being a sin. i do not condemn anyone who acts on their feelings, and i don't think a merciful God would either. what president packer said about our Heavenly Father not giving his children those feelings from birth because he loves us all doesn't seem right to me... i hate to question the words of an apostle, but it makes me so sad that he thinks that people attracted to their same gender choose that path. so many would prefer that they didn't have that attraction, so why would they make that decision? i can understand the idea of being homosexual being just another trial that some have to overcome, but shouldn't we be allowed happiness while on the earth? i can't imagine someone being happy when they think that what they feel is unnatural and a sin. loving a person should be a source of joy, not guilt. and really, what is life without love? president packer said that gay people can overcome their desires, and that they should not act on them. how could a person go against everything they feel, try to force themselves to be attracted to someone who they are completely repulsed to? or live a life absent of any physical contact with those you are attracted to? i can't imagine. i was reading a blog (http://gaymormonguy.blogspot.com/2010/10/president-packers-talk-from-gay-mormon.html) that gave me some more perspective on this, but i can't help but feel that what president packer said makes homosexuals of the LDS faith feel like what they feel and what they do is wrong, when what they should understand is that God, if He is anything like i think/pray/hope He is, still loves them, and that they are not at fault, they have done nothing wrong. |
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